Bit of a personal post today but I wanted to talk about life and careers and not having everything going down the right road etc. I don't want this to be a negative post but I want it to be a post where someone reads it and if they don't have it all figured out just yet to be ok with it and to know they are not alone. 

I will start with my story, when I finished school I had big dreams of being a Makeup Artist just like Bobbi Brown (I am a dreamer) and to move to London and do runways and celebrity makeup,and after living in London for a few years I would move onto New York. Yep as you can see I think BIG. When I did finish school and go onto doing a year of makeup school I loved every second of it I felt so happy and excited about what was going to happen in my life. Fast Forward 4 and 1/2 years and I am so unhappy about it all. I will admit I am nowhere near the dream I had anticipated in the beginning but I am also not even chasing the same dream anymore and I feel so lost. While I do love working freelance it doesn't get me excited anymore and so I need to make changes.

Lately if you follow me on twitter and Instagram you might see the odd post or picture from me and its cake related. I love to bake I always have but lately I literally cannot stop baking I just enjoy it so much and it makes me super happy. I even set up a cake blog and I love creating recipes for it.  Earlier last year I sat down with my parents and talked about changing career paths and to try and set up my own business, a Cake Business. This is my new dream and I desperately want to pursue it but I do feel like I am stuck in a major rut. With all this dream chasing I do feel like I am not living life to the fullest and instead living in a little dream world. Don't get me wrong it is important to have dreams but sometimes I do have to remind myself to live in the moment. I would say I have changed as a person the last year, I see things differently not necessarily in a bad way but I see things different with more perspective maybe this is growing up who knows? 

I guess I decided to write this post to maybe reach out to other people who are in the same boat. I am 25 years old now and I do feel like my life isn't going the way I planned but I don't see it as negative anymore I see it as a challenge. I see it as a new road to take and to push even harder to get what I want in life. I know we all grow up and say we will married by 25 and have two children and live happily ever after but sadly life doesn't work out like that, to be honest I am glad it doesn't I want to focus on me and find myself before I settle down and create other lives... after all everything happens for a reason I guess.  After all that rambling I want to this to tell you all today if you are stuck in a career rut or a life rut and see no way out, there is always a way out, there is always a plan B and there is always adventure to be had. One thing I must say aswell is please do not ever compare yourself to anyone else, I flick through Instagram and see girls my ages and think damn their lives are so perfect but in reality is anyone really perfect? 

I reckon it's time to think more positive and see your time of not having it all figured out and take that time to focus on you and let yourself know what you truly want in life and go get it. I myself plan on spending the next few months organising my new life and trying to get a career off the ground with hardly any funds behind me, which will be a challenge and will be stressful but the outcome is all I am focusing on and for the first time in a very long time I feel excited and nervous all at the same time.

I hope this post has helped if like me you feel a little lost in life and a little misguided along the way. Do feel free to comment and share some advice.

Do you ever feel like your life isn't how you planned? Are you stuck in a Career rut?